Sometimes it just strikes me. Sometimes I have a new revelation, a new awareness of just how much He loves us. And when I do, it generally floors me.
I had one such experience just yesterday, and it left me in shambles. Even after all of the pent up emotions I had from things that were going on, even after they were all spent, God brought out more. He gave me a new revelation of just how much he loves us.
I will never understand it, I don’t pretend to try. All I know is that he does.
And I’ve done my best to love him back for that. I know that my love will waver, but I’m grateful that His love never does. And somewhere along the way, I fell in love with knowing God. I left behind being a “good” Christian, and I fell in love with knowing God.
I’ve come to the point where I believe that I exhibit him in every area of my life, even if I don’t speak directly about him. His transformation in me, as I’m telling parts of it in the series “His Story in Me” on here, it’s direct evidence of him. It’s direct evidence of how he is present in my life everywhere.
Somewhere along the journey, I started drawing on strength from God. I don’t know when, nor how…but it explains why I can keep going much longer than others during stressful situations. It’s why I can remain emotionally calm. Somehow I’m taking refuge in Him. Don’t ask me how, because I don’t know myself, and it’s me that it’s happening to.
My one guess, is that I’m finally learning to rest in his love. He is constantly ministering to me, and most of the time I’m not even aware of it. Just like his love. I may not feel his love all the time, but his love is far stronger than mine.
Know that his love is far beyond comprehension. I’m not sure that I would want a love that I could fully understand anyways. The same way that I don’t think I would want a God I can fully understand. I’ll settle for knowing there are things I’ll never know. I’m okay with that.
As long as I remember that he loves me, even though it may be forever beyond my comprehension, I’ll rest safely knowing that I’m loved by the God of the universe. Knowing that even though the things I go through may not all be good, he still loves me. I’ve learned that it’s all for his glory, not mine. And so to His name, I will give all the glory and praise, for He IS the God everlasting.