It’s March 6th when I’m writing this, and I’m waiting.
I’m waiting to hear from Plattsburgh.
I’m waiting for my body to adjust and tighten so I’m not so flabby.
I’m waiting for May 12th to roll around because it’s graduation.
I’m waiting for my weight to decrease the last little bit I’m aiming for.
It’s so tough to wait. And it annoys me. But for some reason it’s a critical part of life. The situations I listed above, they’re major life changes.
When I graduate from Clarkson, I’ll be finishing 17 years of school, I’ll be jumping into two more at least, but that’s a huge change.
For 17 years I’ve been studying and learning and filling my head with knowledge (whether I remember it or not is a different story altogether). That’s a long time. But I haven’t even lived a quarter of my life, assuming I live to be 100 that is.
I’ve been overweight for most of my life, and I’m now under 190 pounds. That’s huge considering I used to weigh 275 pounds. I’ve been waiting for two years to see this number. I’ve been patient, and even tried quick fads and stuff, but I’ve found that patience and perseverance are two essentials for any type of health related goal.
For some reason God has made waiting an integral part of life. We have to wait on him too. He will never die, so he is able to make plans that cover centuries, and yet we can only play a small part.
How frustrating that is to me. That I may do something and yet never see it come to pass. I may start something and never see it finish. It annoys me.
But I think it’s for the best. Because we cannot see everything nor live to see everything, it causes us to have more faith and trust in God. It causes us to give things up and say “I don’t know what you can do, but here you go!”
That, to me, is a bit of a relief. Suddenly the pressure isn’t on me to perform. The pressure on me is to simply live life. While I live life, I love God.
And that is what he’s called us to do. He has called us to live life and love him. He’s gonna take care of the rest. I can promise you that. So yeah, as for waiting, I’ll be happy to do that. It’s not like it’ll feel any better, but at least I know God’s working.
And when God’s working he changes things. He takes us through major life changes, and those things, once changed because of God, will never revert back.