A Letter to my Grandfather

So it’s been six months since you died.

And even though I don’t always feel it, and when I do feel it I don’t really show it, I miss you. But I know that death is a part of life. I’ll make it through and I’ll have to face death many times more.

I just wanted to let you know everything is okay.

I graduated from Clarkson just like you wanted to see. It was an awesome day. I’m sad you weren’t there, cause I know you really wanted to be there but it wasn’t meant to be.

I’m going to grad school at Plattsburgh, I got an acceptance letter perhaps a month or so after you passed away. I’ll be there for two years before I get a job at a college someplace.

I just want you to know that you’re missed. By a lot of people I might add.

Grandma’s doing well. It’s not easy, but she’s pulling through. Oh, and we got a cat. I know you never said we would but I guess I won that bet huh? She’s black and spunky…won’t let grandma hold her though, she bites and struggles to get away. She does sleep with her though. A couple weeks ago she knocked gram’s clock off the nightstand in the middle of the night.

We got the cat because Katie is getting older. I would say she has maybe a year or two at best left, but I don’t know for sure. I’m glad you brought her home though.

I’m making a difference in people’s lives gramps, even though I don’t always hear about it or learn about it I am. There’s two boys that I’m mentoring, best kids in the whole world to me. There are times when I want to spoil them like you and gramma have spoiled me. I wish you had a chance to meet them…but it’s okay. They’re growing into fine young men like me, in fact one of them helped me through a tough time the other night when I was on my bed sobbing because I missed you.

Told me over and over how proud you were of me, and with the challenges that I face that I don’t tell anyone about, he told me to make you proud and overcome them. God, I love those two boys like they were my actual little brothers.

Mom misses you, I know that much. Shane and Tiffany too, and I’m sure Uncle Wayne and Uncle Phil miss you too.

I think most of all though, gram misses you. She’s too stubborn to admit it, but I know she does. At the same time, I think she’s handling it better than you would have if she had passed away first.

We all miss you, but life has a way of bringing the best of things out of the worst of times.

Just wanted to write you is all.

Lots of love gramps,

Jeff

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