I’m tired of feeling worthless, used, and abused.
I don’t want to just be a doormat for others to walk over, and honestly there are only a couple people, less than five for sure, who do that to me.
And I’m tired of it.
So I’m going to move on.
I know what I’m worth, and it sure isn’t at the level that they make me feel like it is.
I mean there’s only one person who has ever made me feel totally worthless, and I gave them the chance to do it over and over. The next time I’ll see them, they’ll act as though everything is just fine and nothing’s changed. But everything has.
I don’t want to feel worthless, and I’ve even told them…yet they ignored me.
So as I was walking to meet with a professor today, the sun was shining, the sky was clear, and there seemed to be nothing wrong in the world. I could breath, I could see, I could hear, I could feel the wind and sun.
I knew what it was like to be alive.
If I knew that, why would I let some person ruin my day?
Why would I let them make me feel like that?
So I made a decision of sorts. I decided that I didn’t want to deal with that. Do I love that person? I do, they mean a lot to me, and for a long time they meant more to me than I meant to myself.
So I’m cutting them out, or at least not letting them have so much of a stake in my life. My own happiness and well-being is not worth less than a friendship with someone.
And the final close to this post, has nothing to do with it and yet everything. I got a bottle of water today, a FlavorSplash actually, and grape, if you were wondering.
For me it was just a reminder of the simple pleasures of life.
If you’re reading this, then you’re alive and breathing.
Relish that fact.
And never let anyone define your worth.
You’re alive. And because you’re alive, your worth is infinite.